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March 12, 2012

what I learned from 'lethal weapon'

I had the inclination to go back through my blog entries this weekend. I wound up reading the last two years and it made me realize a few things:
1. I think I'm hilarious
2. I watched too much 'Buffy' (yo!)
3. My last ten entries sucked!

So I deleted them. While I've always thought of this blog as a casual exercise in writing (note *making entries via iPad seems to have killed my ability to self-grammar check), it really appears to be more of an exercise in critical thinking. And that's why I nuked those entries. Cause they appear to have been written by a person with reality problems. And while I may indeed have problems, I certainly don't need to go broadcasting them. hah!

So while not a whole lot has changed between now and the last ten entries (I still have a loml and mini-loml), I am going to attempt to think better. or mo' better betta.. and with that said, on with the crazy!


So today I got kind of unprofessional with someone at work. I was totally provoked! but sure enough, while driving home, I got that bad bad feeling like I had screwed up. And after thinking it through a few times, I had to eat some reality and admit to myself that my reaction - not good. "But", i thought to myself, "I'm still young, making stupid mistakes."

ooh no. Stop. stop now.

I'm not young. I should know better. or in the words of Det. Murtough, "I'm too old for this shit". As indeed I am. Seriously, I spent several hours this weekend having the mini-loml throw up on me! Repeatedly! And you know what I was thinking as little miss puked in my hands? "Wow - I remember when a wild weekend meant that I was the one doing the puking".

but no, I'm a big girl now; I catch other people's vomit at home. So why is it any different at work? (actually, i think it takes a lot of love to let someone throw up on you, but let's just go with it). So if I have to be old (and i am, just ask my babysitters), I might as well claim some of the alleged benefits, like wisdom, maturity, knowing better, and all that jazz..

and definitely before i start catching the negative bits, like crappy driving!

March 29, 2012

one fish, two fish, selfish... what?

I was just reading an article about ways that a physician can resist a patient's inappropriate request for antibiotics. Evidently, this is a common issue where patients feel like they need "something" to "fix" their bad feelings, so they insist on getting antibiotics. Some doctors, wishing to avoid confrontation, will write the perscription. You can find the article here.

i found the article pretty interesting, almost buddhist. There was one sentence that really resonated with me. It effectively said that if you are having trouble summoning empathy for another person, than it was possible that you are not getting your needs met and are on the road to compassion burn out. Or to say it another way, how can you effectively help others when you are not at your best?

I think this is one of those magic tricks that we can all learn. How to transform assholes into normal people! If you are in that rare position of being able to impact or give a person something they need, you should! See if a few days of this makes them any better of a person. And the heck with others, how about yourself? Isn't it always a good time to work on your inner asshole? (let's ignore the outer asshole :)

haha - so, that being said. How do we determine what we really need? Well, one fun way is to attempt to go without and then see what breaks. In the IT industry, this troubleshooting method is what we refer to as the "let's just disconnect the thing and see who complains". This is a fun way to do things, and it makes an assumption. That you can listen to yourself enough to actually notice what is broken. I see a lot of crazy people who can't hear themselves. Personally, i think this is when meditation is a good idea. but really people, we have to start listening to ourselves first.

Thanks for all the fish!

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